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The life of an introvert...

Introversion can be a positive thing; it is no bad thing if you are comfortable being on your own. I suppose it depends upon whether you are an introvert by choice, if you are an introvert because others have rejected you, or if you fall into the third category.

The third category is an amalgamation of the other two, and that is the one that I fall into. I am, to put it politely, completely socially inept. Think back to what you were like when you were an awkward teenager. I am still like that now. I honestly have trouble interacting with people socially, and tend to clam up and even have panic attacks when there are more than a few people in any room that I am in. So, in order to limit the amount of attacks that I have I avoid all social interactions. I come to work, I go home. That's it. I have pushed people away until they have given up trying, for which I cannot blame them. The irony is that the loneliness that I feel now is completely self-inflicted. I have always had difficulty interacting with people. I've never liked to force myself onto anyone (and that's stuff like asking for phone numbers, arranging to meet up etc), never thinking that anyone would genuinely want to hang around with me, but that's my self esteem issues at play there.

I have my crafts, and for the most part, especially since I started writing this blog, they keep me sane. And that's partly thanks to you dear reader. If anyone who reads this ever wants to comment please feel free. I am much braver in online discussions than I am face to face.

I have finally finished page three of the photo stitch. It's coming along quite nicely now.
Just five more pages to go!

The other thing that I made this week is another box. I loved the cameo I made the other week, but I wanted it to be part of something bigger, so I made another box! This one Alice in Wonderland themed.





I started off by decopaging the inside and outside of the box, and added crown themed washi tape to the bottom of the box. I then cut a clock and a bottle out of papers in my stash, and coated them in glossy accents. The cards were from a pack I won from Crafts Beautiful magazine way back when I started crafting. I cut them out and glued them together before glossying them. If you notice the tag says Eat me not drink me. I have replaced it but I couldn't be bothered to take another photo. The mad hatter teapot (with three spouts) is shrink plastic.
I am pleased with the roses - they are white roses which I dripped with red pepper alcohol ink - from the painting the roses part. It's nice that sometimes I get a spark of inspiration! Another little spark was the cheshire cat smile, which is made of polymer clay. There is a little trick though...

It's glow in the dark! I wanted to do something to emphasise the fact you often see the grin without it's owner.

I've got a few things on the go at the moment, but mainly I want to start designing something. If it goes well, I may start selling some stuff, so keep your eyes peeled!

Spending ban Numb3rs episode count: 68/118



Comments

  1. Hi Ems. Love this post. It gives me an open window through which I can kind of get to know you a little better, which is lovely because it makes you 'real' rather than just someone who 'lives' in my computer and who, like me, loves to craft! You're doing really well, y'know. Writing and keeping a blog going is not easy. I should know! I've only recently started mine and I find it a bit daunting sometimes as I have no idea if people like what I make or if they think it's total rubbish. I've had a little handful of really nice people who've left a comment - which is amazing to me. (Considering that I don't 'do' the Facebook thing - nor in fact any of the other social networking things! So anyone actually seeing my blog must be clicking away and land on my blog by accident! lol)

    Oh .. while I'm here ... You left a message for me on my blog but (for some reason known only to computers), it went into the Spam folder - so I didn't see the comment until I few days ago when I actually discovered that I even had a spam folder! WHO KNEW?!!! I've moved it to the 'OK' section and approved it, and even replied!

    Loving the Alice in Wonderland box that you made. It's so bright and cheerful. Did you make this one for you, or does it already have a destiny with someone else?

    My most famous bit ... is that glow in the dark grin from the Cheshire Cat! THAT WAS AN INSPIRED BIT OF CRAFTING! Fan-bloomin'-tastic. Loved it. ~ Cobs. x

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  2. *that was meant to read: My most FAVOURITE bit. {tsk tsk. fingers moving faster than brain I think}

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